he wasnt ready,
Dear future wife, do this
Lately I’ve been sad everyday idk if it’s PMS or I’m just letting my thoughts get the best of me or what but I’m really over feeling this way. I know I control my emotions, thoughts and all of that but as I human sometimes I forget the power that I have. Someone came into my life and lit up a part of me that was dim for a long time and now that light is slowly fading out and I can’t remember how to reignite the flame for myself and it hurts…. I didn’t want this to happen this way but sometimes that’s how life works out. I still very much like him and I own up to the things I’ve done to dwindle our flame but I know I’m not responsible for everything…. I just wish I was a more nonchalant I don’t care type of woman then I wouldn’t be writing this blog post at all. Hopefully I can just consume my thoughts with happy things and just take life one day at a time. Everything happens for a reason funny thing is the reason doesn’t always reveal it’s self… Be blessed you guys. Love Bee
Found this old gem I wrote:
you mean a lot to me
in a few different ways.
i just wanted to take this time to say,
i get excited every time i talk to you.
like cold ice cream on the hottest day.
i love how you let me, be B and accept the crazy things i say.
i hate how late at night, you say you’ll call, but instead you
fall asleep, then a few hours later I get, “sorry”
you’re always you, which is what i love most,
on a whole nother coast you reside, but when we connect
i feel you beside, inside - sigh + smile, and for a moment
i forget about all the miles, how little we speak, you don’t
have to check your pulse to confirm your heart beats. Teef,
you don’t have to chase me, cake me, call me, text me on time,
return my tweets for me to know you have love for me. when you
give me attention, its well received to the point, i feel ecstatically that you even thought of me. your presence equals stability, even
though we’re not consistent as I’d wish we’d be, you have impacted me.
grateful, i am to thee.
dag i haven’t posted on here in so long…. looks like last time i did i was pretty emo… go figure lol. anyway, hope yall been good and hopefully i will tumble a lil more often than i used to :) later guyz
Sigh. Have an abscess in my mouth & the swelling is going down. I’m very happy about that. I wish I could eat more than ice cream and yogurt. I’m kinda sad because I was making a new friend but he has started to completely ignore me =\ I don’t know what I did, if I even did anything. But I have more things to worry about and people that actually want to speak to me. No hard feelings toward him but I can’t respect anyone who ignores me. That’s the worst thing ever. Anyway, it’s almost time to rinse out the conditioner. Hope y’all have a good day.
I AM IN TEARS
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